Consciousness is movement within absolute nothing

what are you looking for, what within is looking, what is within looking, I don't know 

True self , is just a bunch of stories of what the true self is just is stories which have been speculated and made up by people

Being demonized in a narcissistic family refers to the systematic process where one member (often called the "scapegoat") is unfairly targeted with projected shame, rage, and blame. Narcissistic parents, who often view children as extensions of themselves rather than independent individuals, use this tactic to maintain control, avoid accountability, and uphold a distorted family narrative where the parent is the victim or hero. Core Dynamics of DemonizationThe Scapegoat Role: The targeted child or family member is made to carry the negative projections, insecurities, and unacknowledged faults of the narcissist.Reversal of Reality: A narcissistic family operates under a distorted system where normal, healthy behaviors (like setting boundaries or having independent thoughts) are labeled as "bad" or disloyal.Gaslighting and Smear Campaigns: Narcissists often spread lies or exaggerated, twisted truths to other family members and outsiders to damage the scapegoat’s reputation.Emotional Exploitation: The scapegoat is often used as an emotional "punching bag" to relieve the parent's anxiety and to avoid facing their own inadequacies.Triggered by Autonomy: If you are a "truth-teller" or have independent, healthy, and quiet traits, you may trigger the narcissist's shame, leading to intense demonization. Signs You Are Being DemonizedConstant Blame: You are blamed for the abuser's actions or for the family's general dysfunction.Extreme Verbal/Emotional Abuse: Vicious name-calling, cruel put-downs, and being treated as "useless" or "wicked".Loss of Reputation: Family members and friends may be turned against you due to lies spread by the narcissistic parent.Double Standards: You are punished for behaviors that others in the family are allowed to do without consequence.Infantilization: You are treated as an incompetent or difficult child, even in adulthood, to diminish your credibility. Long-Term Impact on the TargetInternalized Guilt and Shame: The scapegoat may start to believe they are, in fact, "bad" or the cause of all problems.Low Self-Esteem: A persistent feeling of being unloved, unwanted, or "a mistake".Trauma Bonding: The cycle of abuse makes it difficult to leave, leading to a pattern of fighting for approval.High Alertness: Development of hypervigilance and anxiety, often struggling with over-responsibility. How to Protect YourselfSet Boundaries: Establish firm, consistent boundaries, even if they result in pushback or "extinction bursts" (escalated negative behavior).Limit Contact (Low or No Contact): Reducing or removing contact is often necessary for peace and safety.Disengage from Arguments: Do not waste energy trying to defend yourself or change the narcissist's mind; they are unlikely to hear you.Seek Support: Utilize therapists who understand narcissistic abuse to help unpack the trauma and rebuild self-worth.Understand it’s Not Your Fault: Recognize that the demonization is a reflection of the narcissist's dysfunction, not your character. If you are facing this, remember that your feelings of hurt are valid, and you are allowed to protect yourself. 

The phenomenon of "amazing" or high-functioning, empathetic, and often, the healthiest individuals being scapegoated is a common, documented feature of toxic, narcissistic, or dysfunctional systems.

repeat after me : I AM AMAZING 

Repeat after me: I AM SPECIAL 

repeat after me: I AM CHOSEN 

a spiritual awakening is like therapy, your therapist is your spiritual higher self 

this higher self brings out your deepest root core issues, and you are facing and healing through the awakening journey